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Water is over me and around me. One thought flashes in my mind, full of chaos. That is the fact that I am dying. I don't try to get rid of this thought, because I understand, that death is now inevitable for me. It seems to me, that I am ready now to accept my destiny. I am tired of hiding away from others, though I am used to it. I am sick of being a monster, but there is no way to save me from it. And if I am too weak for revenge... I don't know, what is the reason for keeping on living.
That's why I don't resist to the stream, that is taking me down. I just try to take my enemy with me.
A strange male voice in my head suddenly says my name clearly.
My first thought is "Who are you?"
The second one is "Do not save me".
The voice is trying to persuade me, that I'm wrong, that I have to live on. I should be surprised, that he knows so much about me, my name, my thoughts, my past... But I'm not. I mention to myself - this is just another telepath. When I disappear, this voice will disappear too. This is not the thing, which is worth to be anxious about right now. It's too late to worry about anything else at all. I try to clear my mind and then hear him again. He calls my name once more.
"Do not save me". I hold this thought in my head, I build an invisible wall using bricks with these words - Do - not - save - me - so that the owner of this voice (by the way, the voice is quite nice - I notice that unexpectedly) couldn't get access to my mind. There are too many things, that I would never show to anyone, even to myself. Some of these things were lost in my memory, some of them were just hidden by me. I have seen too much filth and rust in my life.
I drown. I drown and talk to the voice in my head. "I must be totally mad", - I think and laugh inwardly, but this laugh is mixed up with pain. It's good that I've understood it just now, two minutes before my death. The Voicefell silent.
"It's going to be okay, Erik", - after a few seconds of thundering silence I hear him whisper, and then I feel how someone's hands (the Voice's, I suppose) grab me and pull me out of the water.
"Do not save me". These words flash in my mind for the last time, and then I shut up. I undestand that the Voice-in-my-head will not give in.
And then I decide to give the Voice a chance to save me from the darkness. No one has ever succeeded in it, but maybe he will? Maybe once everything will really be okay?
I decide to give one more chance to myself.

[RUS]

Вода захлестывает меня, и из беспорядка в моей голове выделяется мысль о том, что я сейчас умру. Я не пытаюсь ее прогнать, потому что понимаю, что это уже неизбежно. Мне кажется, что я уже готов принять такую судьбу. Мне надоело жить, закрываясь от всех, хотя я и привык к этому. Мне надоело быть монстром, а тут уж, как говорится, горбатого исправит только могила. А уж если я и для мести оказался слишком слаб... Я не знаю, зачем дальше жить.
Поэтому я не сопротивляюсь течению, которое пытается утянуть меня ко дну. Я только тщетно пытаюсь забрать с собой своего врага.
Незнакомый мужской голос в моей голове внезапно четко называет меня по имени.
Первая мысль: "Кто ты?"
Вторая мысль: "Не надо меня спасать."
Голос пытается убедить меня в том, что я не прав, что нужно жить дальше. Я должен бы удивиться тому, что он так много обо мне знает, мое имя и прошлое, но не удивляюсь. Отмечаю про себя - всего лишь очередной телепат. Сейчас я исчезну, исчезнет и этот голос в голове. Это не то, о чем стоит сейчас беспокоиться. О чем-либо беспокоиться вообще уже слишком поздно. Я пытаюсь очистить свой разум и снова слышу его. Он снова называет меня по имени.
"Не надо меня спасать", - я кручу в мыслях эту фразу, строю стену из воображаемых кирпичиков с этой надписью - Не - надо - меня - спасать - только чтобы обладатель этого голоса (приятного, между прочим, голоса, неожиданно для самого себя отмечаю я) не лез в мой разум. Слишком много того, что я никогда и никому не открою. Даже самому себе. Что-то просто не хочу никому показывать, что-то предпочел забыть и не вспоминать. Слишком много плохого я видел.
Я тону. Я тону и разговариваю с голосом в моей голове. "У меня, похоже, окончательно съехала крыша", - думаю я и беззвучно смеюсь. Наверное, хорошо, что я понял это только сейчас, когда жить мне осталось пару минут. Голос замолкает.
"Все будет хорошо", - после нескольких секунд оглушающей тишины я слышу, как он шепчет мне будто на ухо, и чувствую, как чьи-то руки (руки Голоса, надо полагать) хватают меня и тянут наверх.
"Не надо меня спасать", - последний раз проносятся в моем мозгу эти слова, а потом я замолкаю, понимая, что обладатель Голоса-из-моей-головы все равно будет непреклонен.
И я решаю дать Голосу шанс вытащить меня из этой черноты. Ни у кого еще не получалось, но вдруг у него получится? Может, однажды все и вправду будет хорошо?
Я решаю дать новый шанс себе самому.
Water (XMFC One-shot) ENG + RUS
Charles saves drowning Erik.
Erik's POV to this moment of the movie.

These characters are great.

X-Men First Class(c) Marvel, XX Century Fox
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Nothing special.
I just go on with studies after passing all the exams and having a good time in Germany. The week of holidays wasn't enough...

Oh, yeah.
So many movies to watch, so many books to read... What do I do? I rewatch Torchwood and am going to reread Max Frei's 'Book of complaints'. This is typical me. I'm not ready to let my favourite characters go.
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спасибо за llama, сестренка =)
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haha we know languages in common xD SPQR haha yes :D

Morituri te salutant!
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Salve!;D
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